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survivalthroughhate
"This is Maul. State your business."
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"This is Maul. State your business."
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"This is Maul. State your business."
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(no subject)
[Maul can't say he's actually ever consciously loved anyone in the romantic sense, not any that he would admit to anyway. But familial love was something he'd experienced and it hurt just as bad as any crush sometimes.]
Very astute. He was a senator once before he wormed his way into the position of supreme chancellor. I know he aspires to become an emperor.
He was very good at that. I never knew which side I would get, so I spent my entire childhood trying to please him while simultaneously hating him with all my being.
[
That answer to that last question is yes in the original canon but lalala retcons!]No one MADE me get these tattoos. They were given to me by my mother in our clan on Dathomir, the Nightsisters. They are are a mark of all Nightbrothers.
[Which can be a bit of an ouch moment when one considers all the sensitive areas that were tattooed like the nose, lips, ears, and around the eyes. Good thing Maul had been far too young to remember any of it.]
(no subject)
(Eddie? Having personal experience in people using love to abuse him? Whaaat. No. That's not his entire life or anything. What is canonical emotional abuse anyway.)
but love can also set you free when you let it find the right people. and it can make you realize, sometimes, that maybe you deserve better or that maybe some people in the universe want you to have better
and sometimes that makes you want to do better just to make the person you love happy
i dont know
love is weird
(Eddie has enormous emotions about love that he could never really accurately put into a text, but he's doing his best.)
i dont think theres a single non-corrupt politican in the world. power makes people sick,i think
i hope he doesnt become an emperor if only for the sake of everyone who would have to deal with him
im sorry you had to experience that, maul.
(It's so genuine. He's so genuinely sorry, because he knew that even adults were children once and some things just aren't fair.)
i get it. being desperate to please someone like that. it's impossible.
(
Sometimes you just gotta tell canon to fuck off.)oh. im glad then. thats pretty cool. back where i come from no one had tattoos but thugs but it seems like other people in other worlds get tattoos for really decent reasons
i think they look cool
tattoos in general
but yours too
i mean definitely kind of weird? but i think thats cause im not used to people with red skin
which probably sounds bad
sorry
anyway so what is that like your
people? is that
i dont know how to ask this
is that what to call you? nightbrother?
(no subject)
[Wow, one backhanded compliment, order up.]
That's the curse of the Sith. The Dark Side doesn't whisper to its acolytes of inaction. It wants them to gain power. But it is never enough. No matter how much you get, you lose what you want in exchange, but it keeps lying to you, saying just a little more this time will finally satisfy you.
[There was a reason Maul had abandoned the path of the Sith. He hadn't really left it, it had left him behind instead.]
It took a long time, but I finally broke away once I realized he had never truly cared for me.
You have been in this town for how long and somehow it's my skin color that you find strangest about me? Child, you are odd. Very, very odd.
[Well, that's an obvious statement.]
Yes. Most Zabraks come from a different planet called Iridonia. So the ones that live on Dathomir are called Nightbrothers to distinguish us.
Now I must ask you something. Tell me, do you just type out whatever comes into your head? Some sort of stream-of-consciousness thinking?
cw: 50s typical racism/homophobia
(Luckily for Maul Eddie's much more comfortable with backhanded compliments. He never knew what to do with normal compliments. They just made him feel awkward and squirmy.)
whats an acolytye (He would never be able to spell that. He had always struggled a bit with spelling and writing.)
lies are what poisons the universe i think. that definitely sounds like a curse
(Can you be any less dramatic Eddie.)
im glad you finally broke away from him. really i mean it. i know thats one of the hardest things a person can do and not everyones lucky enough to be that strong
i mean. im from 50s america, bud, and deerington is also 50s america.
in 50s america people who are different skin colors than each other arent even allowed to legally get married. my mom would have a heart attack if she knew i even listened to music made by people with black skin. for some reason in my world - and this one, since this one is a lot like mine, people really care about things like your skin color or who you hold hands with or other stuff you cant control
which yeah is pretty weird. but to me social stuff like that hits my life every day
monsters and weird deerington shit doesnt hit me every day
i dont know if that makes sense
it's less that i think youre strange
well
i do
but it's more that i wanna understand different people
(Or something. Eddie was blushing a little on his end because he was...socially graceless, truthfully.)
wow ok so you're from one of those universes where people can go from planet to planet. ok. got it.
yea mostly lol
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[Wisdom didn't come with age for Maul. It came with surviving as many near-death experiences as he possibly could. He sometimes thinks this is the only way to learn anything.]
An acolyte is a devotee, usually to a religion or a cause.
[Who needs a word of the day calendar when they hang around with an eloquent Zabrak instead?]
It was not easy. But I am still here. You'd never believe the things I have survived.
[He absorbs all that information about Earth. Not without some puzzlement, for he comes from a very diverse galaxy where people were divided up into arbitrary categories, but never anything so base as their gender or sexuality. Still, he's been talking to Credence about this subject as well, so he's getting a small handle on how much intolerance had been on this planet and for generations at that.]
What a primitive planet. They are going to be in for quite the shock if they ever explore any of the galaxy further. I'm sure there are far stranger species out there that have far more distinguishing differences then mere skin color.
(no subject)
(This seems like such an unusually blunt thing, but Eddie's grown pretty tired and indifferent to information like this. Deerington definitely made some people jaded the longer they stuck around.
But he is flattered by Maul's faith in him. Eddie, personally, found himself to have the intelligence of a brick. So like, really. Props to Maul.)
oh oh okay i have heard that before.
(Just not recently.)
i'd probably believe them, trust me. i pretty much believe anything these days
(Eddie couldn't blame anyone from any sort of alternative universe for being puzzled. He's been working through this stuff for the past three years, and half the reason it was so difficult to overcome internalized issues was because so few of them had any real basis in logic. Eddie had been operating on fear and oppression and that was a bitch of a thing to fight against. Intolerance was a monster all on its own.)
"Primitive" is probably the most accurate description for it, yeah. i doubt we even make it to the moon let alone the galaxy.
(You ever just born before the moon landing....)
there DEFINITELY are. they dont come through here too often though. i mean to be fair ive seen a lot weirder things than you back in derry but It wasn't exactly willing to sit down and tell me about Itself.
im sure you find some stuff about me or other people here weird too in any case. people are
just weird overall
(no subject)
[He ran into Bill a while back and had heard a little about how they had seen their futures somehow. He still wasn't entirely sure how it had happened.]
Ask me again some other time and perhaps I will tell you.
[He just doesn't know this kid well enough to know if he could be trusted with the story of how Maul had survived being cut in half.]
Mostly what I find strangest is how many of you come from places with such closed minds. Also the lack of non-humans. That is strange. Any space port on even the smallest moon has more diversity then this Earth seems to.
[Seriously, they need more talking fish, tiny reptiles, and giant sentient slugs around here to make it seem more balanced.]
(no subject)
(Eddie can't help but be enthralled by the idea. Bill was, after all, his personal hero. And his best friend, but he still never failed to be amazed that Bill would ever talk about him to anyone.)
hes my best friend. one of them anyway. have you met ben and richie? we're all from derry.
ok i can do that.
(Truthfully it seemed like some pretty personal stuff so Eddie wasn't put off by asking for some time on that one. Eddie was oddly open with a lot of things, but he was a trap door on the stuff that mattered and the stuff that haunted him the most. He understood secrets better than most, even if he did seem like he just babbled whatever was on his mind.)
yeah earth is the pits. our world just hasnt really gotten the technology for the most part for space exploration i dont think. sometimes i wonder if aliens even exist in my universe because surely if they did like you then they would have found us by now?
(no subject)
[He wonders if this is the one Eddie wants to ask out on date, but that seems a bit too personal to ask simply over text. Besides, the boy could just simply deny it all he wanted.]
Ben is the fat boy, yes? I've met him. I have not met anyone named Richie.
[Maul might tell him the story someday. It's not his favorite, but it did shape him into who he had become today.]
Perhaps they're simply staying away because the humans on Earth are far too primitive and stupid for their tastes.
(no subject)
(He had a feeling he knew what the guy meant, but well. People's powers were different everywhere. As for the date thing, Maul's not too far off there. It'd be obvious when it was obvious anyway. Eddie was agonizingly transparent.)
yeah bens the fatty. he's a super nice guy and we only just met him but hes definitely Loser material. thats the name of our group - we're the losers club and bills like. our leader. me him and richie have been friends forever
you'll know richie when you meet him. he's tall and loud and talks more than me and usually says more offensive things in one sentence than i do in a whole week. okay maybe thats not true it's a pretty close match to which of us has a worse mouth. he wears big glasses that make his eyes go O_O
(Which, in Eddie's opinion, was pretty damn cute. He doesn't bother with that detail though.
They all had their stories. They would make their way through them.)
maybe. to be honest with you i think my earth is a lot different than most earths. it was made by a turtle and i dont think other earths were made by a giant space turtle. maybe we aare just off the grid
(no subject)
[Something only a few Sith and Jedi were cursed with. Maul had never had much talent with it.]
How did you stumble across that name for yourselves?
[Though from what he'd seen of Bill, Ben, and Eddie thus far meant he had a fairly good idea of what had led to it. They weren't exactly looking like the popular kids at school.]
I'll keep that in mind when I meet him.
A giant space turtle? I must say that's one I haven't heard.
cw: bullying, homophobic slur
Back when Gansey was in town, he had once told Eddie that Gansey and himself were alike. That Eddie was a little king, whatever that had meant, and something else-.)
i saw the future because of strange events in town here. so i dont know if that had much to do with me.
but sometimes i dont know. it's hard to explain. i saw my friends talking to my mom once. she told them to go away, that i didnt want to see them anymore, but my friends told her they'd be back. but i was in a hospital bed when all that happened, and at first i thought it was just a dream but then it wound up being true.
i dont really know if thats the same thing. it scared the beejbus outta my mom i think because she tried to lie to me and tell me they wanted nothing to do with me anymore. but i said no, i saw them, they wanted to see me.
(For once, Eddie wasn't really trying to overshare. He was just being honest, and maybe a small part of him had always been a little curious about that stuff. But it was always so odd to him. He never knew how to word any of it.)
cause it's the name we all got called a lot back home. like everyone had different names for us that were like specific to stuff we hated about ourselves. like ben got called stuff like "tits" or "fat boy" and bill got made fun of for his stutter. me and richie were always ragged on as faggots or whatever. and we had other friends who had similar stuff, but like, the bullies would call all of us together losers and so i guess we started to use it as a compliment
like
reclaimed it?
so we'd call ourselves the Losers Club as a way to be like "screw you we know we're different and we're fine with being different because we have each other at least and you have no one"
(Which that all seemed like it would be private, but truthfully it was old news back in Derry. Everyone knew about their group. The town knew that Eddie Kaspbrak and Richie Tozier and Bill Denbrough and Bill Hanscom were giant losers. It wasn't exactly a kept secret or anything.)
just to warn you he definitely swears a lot. so you might need to give him fair warning about that whole thing
yeah it's
really weird i wont lie to you. maturin. this giant turtle god? and he liked us. and helped us fight this thing that was like
literal evil
im fully aware that this sounds completely fake by the way
(no subject)
[The meditation should help with that. Focus his mind into being able to hone his skills. If Eddie's mind could ever stop flitting around like a hummingbird who had drank a whole cup of caf.]
Taking back the name as your own. Very good. I approve.
Oh, he'll learn not to do that around me very quickly.
[Maul's got that epic death glare after all to be used when he's disapproving of foolish children.]
You'd be amazed at the strange things I've experienced in the world. That almost sounds rational. My mother existed in a completely different plane of existence for about a full year.
(no subject)
(Not special. The idea that anyone could sense anything like that about him makes his skin prickle. Not in a bad way, not in a good way. Eddie and power never exactly went hand in hand and he didn't even know what to say about that.)
i wouldnt mind trying that.
thanks :) you seem like the kind of guy who would
you wont hurt him will you?
(Eddie didn't think Maul would, but it's his natural instinct to defend Richie.)
wow. okay yeah then you probably would get it. i guess when you're out there in space everything seems more believable anyway. that's actually kind of cool. i think most people think im just stoned when i start talking about turtles and like the embodiment of evil looking like a clown.
(no subject)
I know you might think I've always been on top of the food chain, but there was a time when I was young like yourself and had to work my way up to where I am now. I can understand why you and your friends would be where you are now.
I don't hurt children unless I have to.
[Saying he didn't hurt children at all would've been more reassuring, but it also would've been a lie. Maul has killed men, women, children, and just about everything thing that walked or crawled across most planets when it suited his needs.]
The embodiment of evil looks like a clown? Now that is one I haven't heard, considering the ultimate embodiment of evil in my own galaxy looks like a kindly old man.