Deerington CR Chart (WIP)

[survivalthroughhate]

*This is done in Maul's POV and in no particular order. Last updated 5/6/21.

FROM THE GALAXY

SAVAGE ♪ ♪

My younger brother and the person I have missed the most in the time I've been here. For all the horror this place has wrought upon me, bringing my brother back to me almost has made up for them. I'll never stop feeling guilt for having directly been the cause of his death but I've finally begun to work past part of it. Finally, the pain has eased a little. Second chances for people like us don't come often and this time I will not fail him again. I made sure he knew the moment he arrived how much he meant to me.

This place has changed me much in some ways but the loyalty and bond we have with each other is not one of them. If anything can help me move forward on this new path towards the unknown that I fear so much, it's having him as my strong right hand as he's always been that will allow me to move forward. He seeks to be a worthy apprentice for me but he'll never know how much I already see him as such, both as a fellow Sith and as a brother.

OBI-WAN KENOBI ♪

Where do I even start with this man? Obi-Wan is my oldest foe, the thought of revenge on him keeping me alive for years, and the epitome of what I believe the Jedi should be, for he will never fall no matter what I do to him. Just never tell him that last bit, he deserves no compliments from me. This place seems fit to continue intertwining our lives together. When he first arrived, I was suffering from amnesia which had made me forget him entirely. It was.....it was easy to get along with him, moreso than I want to admit, a glimpse of what might have been had we not fought on Naboo all those years ago. I was lonely and homesick and he filled a void easily...

...But then I remembered who he was. To say I was enraged would be an understatement. I wanted to cut him down right then and there in a fury but somehow the negotiator managed to talk me into a stalemate. When I could take responsibility for all the actions that had led me to this point, we would have a rematch. For reasons I cannot still fathom, I agreed. Things went along acrimoniously as usual for a time, but when I lost control of myself and went on a killing spree, he was the one to end it by killing me. I thanked him for it....

....and subsequently lost all memories of the man AGAIN! With no memories of him from either home or here, it became easy to talk to him again, and he was very helpful in try to figure out a new path to go down when much of the sentiment in this place turned against me. I remembered him while fighting his apprentice, but this time, I didn't immediately go off to kill him. I think I am past that instinctive urge. Much as I hate to say it, I might be forced to turn more to him as I seek out the road of redemption.

ANAKIN SKYWALKER or THAT IDIOT APPRENTICE OF OBI-WAN'S ♪

I really must question how Obi-Wan managed to instruct this idiot to become a full Jedi Knight. Perhaps the standards of the order are slipping...? Also how he didn't throw him off a cliff in the past decade or so just proves the man has far more patience than should be possible for a single human being. He arrived and immediately went on the attack, so I killed him. Ever since then, we have been at odds. He's slipping to the Dark Side to save someone he loves and I fear what will happen now that my master has his claws into him. He won't listen to my warnings and continues to fall.

After a second fight where he was saved only thanks to the interference of that meddlesome Nightsister, he was of course all for putting me in the sarcophagus. Let's see how smug he is when I get out. He's long overdue for a discussion between me, him, and Obi-Wan regarding why he's so desperate to believe the lies my master keeps feeding him.

QUI-GON JINN ♪ The old Jedi Master I killed so long ago on Naboo, now brought to this place because apparently there weren't ENOUGH Jedi here already. He is a strange Jedi, for while he doesn't stray from the Light, he seems to acknowledge the Dark also in a way. I can see where Obi-Wan got some of his personality and wisdom from. Perhaps it is easier hearing what he has to say than when it comes from Kenobi because I don't have a blinding hatred of the man. Despite being the cause of his death, he doesn't seem to hold it against me all that much.

AHSOKA TANO ♪ A strange and intriguing Togruta. She claims not to be a Jedi but acts like one so much of the time I don't believe her. She also seems to know me but I do not have the same advantage. Perhaps a figure from my future? So much of it remains clouded and perhaps she could provide the answers. But that would require giving her a level of trust she has not yet earned from me.

Asajj Ventress ♪ The last Nightsister in the galaxy, she is a source of hatred for my brother, and by extension me. I am not sure of what her intentions here are yet but I will follow what Savage wishes to be done with her, whether that is make her an ally or make her suffer at his hands. Exactly what side of the Force she follows I am not certain of anymore, for she still feels Dark but seems to be on her own path now.

THE ADULTS

GEE ♪

Helping him to fix up his house. Not entirely sure if he's human or not, for I get an interesting feeling from him. I feel like he's hiding something but I can't figure out what just yet. Still, he hasn't given me reason to distrust him yet, and even broke the curse on me when I was transformed into a child.

After many months of no real contact, he saw fit to judge me for what I did to that idiotic abomination. For that, he can go fall in a sinkhole for all I care.

LUCILLE SHARPE ♪ ♪

I can't give too much of an opinion, for every time I meet this woman, we are in an altered state. If I can ever meet this woman when we're both ourselves, I shall be able to judge her properly. Still, she seems intelligent and fascinated with minutae.

After much more discussion, I feel she is a kindred spirit. She has been through much of the same sort of life I was unfortunately granted in my youth and there are many things we agree upon, including how killing can sometimes be the best solution to problems. She doesn't seem to pass judgement on the things I have done during my life and I have done the same for her.

Lucille has become a trusted friend in this place. I've found someone who has the same sort of mindset I do. She's told me more of her life back home, including the brother she loved and somehow lost. She cares deeply for people here but will not hesitate to kill, either for or to protect them. If I had to murder someone in this place and hide the body, I would turn to her as a companion to help me bury it.

"HUNTRESS" ♪

HOW COME EVERY TIME I MEET THIS WOMAN SHE TRIES TO KILL ME?!

I finally returned the favor when I went insane. I suppose that makes us even.

JOHN CONSTANTINE ♪

I know he'd like everyone to think him some mysterious, hardened, grizzled man, but I don't believe it for a second. He was nothing but kind to me when I was a child when he had no reason to be. Also I am saving that video of him as a teenager for when I need a good laugh.

Recently stumbled into the shop he owns several times over the course of two months. He might be more useful than he initially seems on the surface. We seem to keep butting heads but not to the point where I feel the need to kill him. I now owe him a favor and no doubt he'll come forth to have me pay the debt in the future.

A.R.I.D. ♪

A sentient program encased in a battle suit. Dislikes being referred to as a droid. Not a fan of human beings, something we can both agree on. I mistrust her. One can never know the intentions of rogue pieces of technology that can think for themselves.

When I went mad, she was one of the few that seemed agree with me that Jon needed to die and provided valuable information on the others that I didn't already know. She might prove useful when it comes time to take revenge upon them all.

But our relationship has taken a downwards turn. When I went on a killing spree, I destroyed her current body, though I am uncertain if this actually resulted in a state where she might have been officially dead or not.

MICHAEL ♪

Apparently, this is what a demon actually looks like, contrary to the people of Earth who keep mistaking me for one. A strange sort of creature. I'm not sure if he seems to like humanity or wants to do something like eat them. Still, an affable sort, and someone who has been able to help me figure out just what 'doing better' in this place can mean to me personally.

After almost a year here, it's become clear that Michael is helping me go down a better path. He's had much more experience at learning to care for people and what that means in terms of consequences. I trust him enough to ask questions when I am unsure of the proper emotional response to be having to things. He seems to understand me and doesn't judge when I talk about my past, something that I also trust he will keep to himself.

A Fool ♪ I'm certain this man is a legitimate idiot. He deserves every moment that I have terrorized him. For those who don't think I have any self-control, his continued existence should prove this to the contrary.

PETER B. PARKER "SPIDER-MAN" ♪

On Spider-Man: Another spider-person in this town? Are they all related or do they all hatch from eggs or some other form of breeding? This one has far too many quips. Why is it the self-righteous "heroes" always do?
On Peter: He makes for one anxious child. How he ever survived to adulthood is beyond my comprehension.

He has provided much useful information on how to survive in this town. Perhaps his obsessive nature in creating his pamphlets is a coping mechanism to prevent him from realizing how terrible being in this town can really be? I did see something recently that leads me to believe he will die soon. I suppose I'll have to try and keep him alive...

REAPER (GABRIEL) ♪ ♪

If there's one memorable way to meet someone, I suppose it's being rescued from a burning building and certain death by some sort of phantom with a shotgun. I will not admit that this may be a bit of a turn-on as well. I have a weakness for men who are as deadly as he is. As I am aptly named, so is Reaper. I suppose we are something like friends, though how long that will last is up to the Force.

After several meetings where we have gotten closer and thinking it over in my head, I have gotten into something of a relationship with him. I don't know if either of us truly know what we are getting ourselves into here or where it will last, but one thing I know for certain is that I truly care about him. Like will find like, as the saying goes, and we make for a near-perfect match in that respect.

I forgot him when I lost my memories after death including the one where I killed him when he got between me and what I saw as my prey while I was being haunted by the ghost of my former master. Despite being wary with both of our memories gone, we began to learn how to trust each other again, and he didn't seem to hold what I'd done against him for what little he could remember of his own death. Now I must find a way to get him to remember me in turn. Whether this will take knocking him through a wall or forcibly kissing him is something that I will have to discover through trial and error...

NEOPOLITAN "NEO" ♪

A mysterious mute woman. I'm not sure if she can't talk or simply chooses not to. She has some strange powers I don't fully understand including that of illusion. She's got a temperament I can agree with on things like killing and violence.

After meeting her time and again in this place, I think it is safe to say we have become friends. She is a good confidant, for it is easy to talk to her, and not simply because she doesn't answer back verbally. In a fight, she is someone I can rely on to have my back.

After a year here together, I can say she is a close friend. She has been in the same position I now find myself in of having to figure out whether to take a course of revenge or not, so it makes her a good confidante to turn towards when I find myself conflicted on how to proceed. Despite all I have done, she doesn't seem to hold things against me, and we still go out to hunt monsters together.

Rei Hino ♪

When I look at this woman, the first word that comes to mind is grace. She's aloof but kind, an combination that would seem contradictory in any other person. Very knowledgeable about this place. There is much power within her, some akin to the Force in how she wields it.

While we do not speak often, she remains someone who is composed and doesn't make quick snap judgements. It is a boon given how often I seem to keep making mistakes in this place. She knows how my mind works after we melded together as weapon and user during the early months I was here, so she doesn't condemn me outright when I commit what others would flat-out call atrocities.

Usagi Tsukino ♪ ♪

A powerful beacon of light. That's not a metaphor, that's what her power feels like. She's of the Light the same way the Jedi are, though unlike them, she's not a sanctimonious hypocrite. I end up bickering with her more often than not whenever we have occasion to talk and sometimes it feels as if she is a schoolteacher in the way she seems to be trying to lecture me. As if I could learn anything from what she has to say.

I hate to admit it, but she has become one of my closest friends here. She has been unfailing in her belief that I can be a better person, and I hate to also say it, but she often has good advice for me as well. She doesn't judge me for what I have done before and doesn't try to change me at all, letting me come to conclusions on my own. As of late, I have come to think she is part kyber-crystal, which would explain much. Did or did she not kill me during October? I don't know yet.......and now I do. The answer was yet.

Usagi has become a pillar to me here, a center of light I can focus on when all else fails, even if we still bicker like husband and wife. Who else could have gotten my forgiveness entirely upon realizing I'd been killed by them? She's of the moon and it keeps her from being overwhelming as she tries to nudge me to a better path. Her heart is huge, and no matter what I do, I cannot drive her away. She is always there for me and has been patient as the day is long on guiding me towards a path of, if not true redemption and light, then at least not pure darkness either. I have come to rely upon her and will continue to seek out guidance from her. She is truly one of the best people I know here in this wretched town. She has recently gotten me to see that if I am going to change, it needs to be done through my own force of will instead of wanting to change for anyone else. It is a hard path to walk down when it is so unknown to me but I can say with confidence she will be with me every step of the way.

VIRA-LORR ♪

A woman who has experienced much and been here a long time. She is wise and perceptive, and despite the third eye not giving her the power to read minds, she seems to see much of what makes me up. I have come to see her as a good ally and she has changed my thoughts on how I saw several things in this place.

She has become what I see as almost a spokeswoman for the things that occur here from month to month. While she is sometimes wary of me, which is a healthy reaction, she has known me for long enough that she will not condemn me for all that I have done. She seeks to understand me instead and it is a great boon, for she does hold much influence among the rest of the Sleepers. Most recently she was able to understand my reasoning behind severing Glitch's arm, a welcoming change from the public condemnation I have received otherwise.

Martin Blackwood ♪

A fool and IDIOT. Destroy the book, he said, and that will reverse the effects. Bah! It ended up exacerbating them to a painful degree instead. I unwittingly revealed to him that I held more Leitners and he assembled a squadron of cronies to steal them from me. I will see him dead by my hands for that grave insult, though killing Jon seems to have been a good first step in hurting him. As I have discovered time and again, hurting a man by killing those he loves is far worse than destroying him outright.

After many months here, I still have yet to enact true revenge upon him, but I will see it done eventually. He condemns me as a monster while being a hypocrite, given he keeps company with that thing that is ten times more dangerous than I could ever be. He may call me a monster all he likes. Someone steeped in as much darkness as he is can have whatever opinion they want of me, for I do not care what the likes of him thinks.

Sasha James ♪ One of the little underlings who followed Jon and Martin in stealing the books from me. I had little information on her, but ARID fortunately was able to track down her identity. If she thinks killing Jon was a terrible event, hopefully she fears her own death just as much.

"Adelard" ♪ Another who stole the Leitners from me. He gave me a name, and in the midst of madness, I accepted it as the truth, but upon reflection I'm not so sure. I received some information on him from ARID, namely where he lives. He's a weakling afraid of power. Well, if he's afraid of it, he should well fear me when he finds me on his doorstep some day in the future.

Tim ♪

This man is one of those who stole the Leitners from me, but beyond that, he remains a mystery. I don't even know his name. But he can only keep his head down for so long. Perhaps torturing one of his companions publicly will flush him out again...

I eventually encountered him during one of the times Deerington took a turn for the surreal. When I realized who he was, I Force Choked him to death, a fitting fate for someone of his nature, and the first death I committed here in Deerington. He deserved it and I feel no guilt for what I did. Since then, he has seemed to avoide me entirely, a wise decision. One down, several more to go....

CECIL ♪ A strange man who seems to take everything that comes in Deerington with a blithe sort of spirit. Apparently comes from a place even stranger than this hellhole, if that's at all possible. Has a boyfriend he mentions at every turn he can. They're so in love it's sickening. And maybe a touch nice to behold. He is....kind to me, surprisingly, and doesn't seem to take most of what I do as an example of the only things which I am capable of showing.

JP ♪ A very strange man who has the Force only knows how many paramours and flirts with me every time we meet, I initially thought him to just be another idiot in this place, but he's proven to have more going on beneath the pretty boy surface exterior than I ever would have thought. This still doesn't keep him from asking the most aggravating and intrusive questions.

RALEIGH ♪ I'm not entirely sure this man is fully human. He might have some dog mixed into his DNA, one of those retrievers I have read about in books about Earth. I think he knows me as a fictional character on his world which might explain part of how he acts around me. I've never had a fanboy before... But his optimism and desire to see the good in me is rather refreshing compared to some of the people I have met here. Apparently in a relationship with that other strange man from his world, Chuck, something that is easy to torment him about. I saved his life, more on instinct than anything else, an act which proved to myself finally what everyone has been telling me for a long time: that I do have the capacity to do good the same way I've dealt out so much harm.

CHUCK ♪ Chuck had the dubious honor of being the first person to inform me I am from a fictional series of movies on some versions of Earth. I won't lie, that shook me quite a bit to my very core. He comes from the same world Raleigh does. Perhaps it's just a human thing but I find them a little difficult to tell apart. And they apparently are a couple if their frantic searching for one another at the hotel was any indication. They seem like a well-matched pair.

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THE CHILDREN

FERN ♪ ♪

An odd boy who is made of of grass. (How is he even alive? Though he did manage to die.) Seems to have some trust issues with people. Appreciates a lightsaber, so he must have some taste. Friends with Varian and hates Ruby. Why must I be dragged into this nonsense? Currently training him in the art of swordsmanship. And giving life advice. Hopefully he's wise enough to take it.

Much has happened between the two of us. I've learned more about the inner workings of his mind, which is a place filled with doubt and self-loathing all the time. We have fought together and he had to watch me die. He's turned his back on me when I needed him the most and I forgave him for it, though I shall not give him a third chance. Recently, I began to have Force visions where he was dying. Though I tried my hardest to prevent them, I failed him, my greatest failure in this place to date. I won't lie when I say such a thing was a great reason why I went insane in October.

Since then, our relationship continued much along the same track. I kept training him until my master's ghost ordered me to kill him and Varian. I set the poor boy on fire, an experience that I know had to be traumatizing for him. I only recently regained memories of him and I know I must find a way to make amends for him, even if he doesn't want to forgive me.

SOME ARROGANT GIRL ♪

Arrogant and cocky (which reminds me of me when I was younger) to the point of thinking she can defeat me in a duel. We'll just see about that. Also apparently thinks a lightsaber is a juvenile weapon. I'm going to need to expand her education on that particular point.

I attacked her when my master's ghost invaded my mind and injured her in quite a severe manner. I suppose I showed her just what the power of a lightsaber could do after all. I'm not sure how she managed to escape but at least this makes for one less death on my conscience.

EDDIE KASPBRAK ♪ ♪

This child is absolutely neurotic. I would say he needs some medication, but considering his hypochondriac tendencies and self-destructive nature, perhaps some meditation would be better. Curses a lot (though he tries not to around me, smart boy), talks a lot, and manages to write out about six paragraphs for every text sent.

He vacillates quite often between being wise beyond his years and acting like the dumbest teenager I have ever had the misfortune to come in contact with (one has to wonder how he's alive and mostly in one piece at this point). Still, somehow, we seemed to have gained each other's trust over a period of time, though I missed the exact point that happened. He can be a cold and callous little thing, though oftentimes he points out that which others are afraid to say.

As of late, things have gotten very strained between us, given what I did to his boyfriend and to Ben. I don't blame him in the slightest for being angry with me nor for anything that he wishes to say to me. His life has not been easy and I am not doing him any favors by pouring more hardship on him. Perhaps when this dream collapses something good will finally happen to him.

RUBY ROSE ♪

Another interesting meeting was had when I found her rummaging through my food like a starving Jawa. Very loud, very excitable, even more so as a child. She has very good taste in weapons and I can appreciate that. Apparently the cause of some friction between Varian and Fern.

As I've come to know her more as her own person instead of just the cause of friction between others here in town, I have come to see she is a capable warrior in her own right, and has demons that she's facing all on her own too. She is caught between the tension created between myself and Glitch but is not picking one side over the other. She still seems willing to give me chances to do better after all I have done, but it is hard to think I can live up to her expectations.

WILL ♪ ♪

Amazing it's only a child that seems to be able to see into the core of what I am. Either I am better at fooling people than I think or he is more perceptive than most. There's something within him, something dark he doesn't want others to know about. But I see it all too clearly.

Even with all the time that has passed, I still don't know how to define my relationship with this boy. Despite what have been clear reservations on his part, we have grown closer, though we both remain wary of each other. I established a link in his mind when I helped to clear voices out when he couldn't do himself and found the source of that darkness within him. I get the distinct feeling he's just waiting for me to show what I truly am as a former Sith Lord, for he seems to possess quite a bit of knowledge of my universe, however incomplete it might be.

While we continue to circle around each other like a pair of wary tookas, there is some level of trust established between us. When I put up a wall in his head to prevent the creature inside from taking over, I did it partially for my own reasons, part of it was simply because I did not want him to be manipulated the way I was. It was something that lasted for many months before it broke free again, wreaking havoc while in his body. I cannot find it in me to condemn him for things he might have done and he seems to be doing likewise for me. On a lighter note, to my utter and eternal amusement, he was one of the last to know about the relationship between myself and Reaper. I thought I was going to see someone finally die of embarrassment here in town upon seeing his reaction.

VARIAN ♪ ♪

I am unsure if this boy is a genius or completely insane. Perhaps both. He's perceptive, one of the few to understand the balance of the Force when I explained it. For a reason I cannot fathom, he trusts me. More's the pity. He seems very concerned about what people think of him. He and Fern are very good friends. Or were. Hard to tell. I am not equipped to deal with all this school-age nonsense.

After experiencing a nightmare/memory of his, I think I finally understand why he's got so much self-loathing beneath his surface and why he's so determined to make up for the point in his life when he was obsessed with revenge. He and I talk quite frequently and it's become very apparent to me just how brilliant he really is. He's one of the few I feel understands me well and I do the same for him. But things have become broken between us recently (my fault as usual) and I am unsure if they can be fixed.

Things continue to vacillate back and forth between us. I broke a promise to him and it nearly severed things between us for good. It drove home to me how if I want to keep those around me that I love, my first step must be in learning to change for the sake of others. Our relationship was finally beginning to be repaired between us when my master's ghost possessed my mind, asking me to kill. I ran him through with my lightsaber and then lost the memories of him when I died. During that time, I went after Glitch, forgetting the promise I had made as well. Now, with them back, I am unsure of how to approach him again, or if this will be the final straw that snaps the bantha's back, leading him to abandon me and stop trying to show me how to go down the path of redemption.

GLITCH ♪

I am going to kill this boy if it the last thing I ever do! Exactly why Varian and Fern have taken such a shine to him, I have no idea. At first he was just a pain, but after finding out he has lightning powers--no, there's no way for me to get past that. Either he dies or I do trying.

He continued to be an idiot who took every opportunity to run his mouth and paint me as some personal boogeyman in the dark for him. His lack of respect was galling and irritating like a gadfly. A promise made to Varian made me ignore him for some time, but when I lost my memories, I found an opportunity to teach him a lesson he would never forget. He lost his arm, and if this place hadn't provided him yet another protector in the form of that control-obsessed fear monger Ironwood, it would have been his life as well. He and the general used the opportunity to paint myself as an irredeemable monster. If that's the way he wants to see it, so be it. I refuse to feel guilt over what I did, for he deserved it, and if this place had true justice he would have gotten even worse. My only hesitance is that by breaking my promise not to go after him, it may have damaged things with Varian, Fern, and Ruby, given I had told them I wouldn't do anything to him.

PAIMON (AND HIS HOST PETER) ♪

From the outside, merely an idiotic teenager with about two brain cells to rub together. Within him, though, ah there's something much greater than anything else in this place, something ancient. His name is Paimon and he has power the likes of which I haven't seen in a long time. There is potential there, though for some reason he's crippled in a way that keeps him from coming into his full power. He seems to have taken a shine to me and looks to me for guidance, which I am only too happy to provide.

Eventually, I learned that a pact had been made with a witch not to get rid of his useless host, so a new tact had to be taken. Paimon continues to grow in his power and learn from me, while his host continues to be a barely-functional idiot and rightfully terrified of what I can do to him. We shall have to see what will come of me forcibly bringing the demon to the surface when I went on my rampage.

Richie ♪

Apparently, the universe is just not content with bringing forth one version of this nuisance. Is putting up with his presence some form of penance I have wrought down upon myself from a lifetime of horrible deeds? It certainly feels like it. At least he is more tolerable this time around or at least smart enough not to invoke my wrath. He and Eddie are certainly a pair, though a pair of what I am not entirely certain of.

He ended up encountering me when I was on a killing spree. I tried to take his head but fortunately only ended up maiming him by taking off an ear. I'm certain he and his young boyfriend are both going to hold that against me but I can't say I blame them.

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THOSE WHO HAVE LEFT

ROSE THE HAT ♪ A woman with a predatory edge. She is a hunter of men. I met her when I first was in town. She has some sort of power to her, but beyond that, I cannot distinguish what it is. She and I are in an alliance, but I still do not trust her. I believe only a fool would do that.

TINA GOLDSTEIN ♪ A witch who can apparently perform magic. Wherever she comes from is apparently not a pleasant place and the town is almost an improvement, something I can agree with her on. Also has excellent taste in books.

FELICIA HARDY "BLACK CAT" ♪ A pretty thief who also has a pretty way with words. The fact she owns more clothes than I have ever owned in my entire life is astounding.

JEFF CALHOUN ♪ Another one who may be an idiot, though in his case, it might just be a case of making profoundly bad decisions time and again. Something that I unfortunately also have far too much experience in. Still, it's not all bad. Such a personality makes him easy to manipulate.

Xiao Xingchen ♪ A being full of light, the direct counterpart to Xue Yang, seeing as how they both come from the same world. He's perceptive and sees things in me which I do not. In a strange way, he reminds me of Obi-Wan, if there was a version of the man I didn't have intense hatred for.

GWEN POOLE ♪ A exceedingly odd girl, though she has moments of being clever. She apparently has the power to know about people and their pasts, though she's not omniscient, as she has quite a few gaps regarding myself. She wouldn't tell me about what happened at the end of the war, much to my dismay.

Eleven ♪ My apprentice. She shows much potential, very promising in the way she can use her mind to shape the world around her. She's put her faith in me, which is one of the few things that has surprised me in this town, but I will not make the same mistakes as I did last time. Very soon I shall have to start training her to use a lightsaber.

LAURA ♪ A young girl who has been through far too much pain in her short life. I can sympathize all too well with the abuse she's gone through and how she was treated more as a weapon than as a person.

Richie ♪ An idiot of a child who disrespected me the first time we met. I snapped his wrist like a twig in response. For some reason, Eddie is infatuated with him and so berated me for the act. No wonder. The pair of them deserve each other, for who else would have them?

JESSIE ♪ A living toy. That's a phrase I still have trouble comprehending. I initially mistook her for a member of some small sentient species, but no, she's a living toy. Our first meeting did not go well, but she was kind to me when she didn't need to when I was turned into a child. She's a wise being, which I suspect comes from being in a state as close to immortal as one can be in.

CREDENCE BAREBONES ♪ He reminds me of a Corellian hound that's been kicked too many times. He's had far too much happen in his past that I can sympathize with, but he took the opposite way to survive than I did up until a short time ago. He managed to do what I have never accomplished when he killed his mother. Still, there is power in him, something dark there. I shall be keeping a close eye on him. Yes. Very close...

ALEX REAGAN ♪ Met this woman when I was a child. Kind but a bit odd. Seems like she needs to relax and breathe every once in a while, though the Force only knows she won't get the chance to do it here.

DR. LUKA KOVAČ ♪ A affable doctor who seems to have an inordinate amount of optimism for someone in this place. Unfortunately, his methods to treat injuries are likely primitive, but he is one of the few I would trust to patch me up. Ran into some trouble in the forest and I have to question the likelihood of his survival if I had to rescue him even when I was a child.

𝐕𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐘 𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐈𝐍 ♪ Apparently, I am not the only one that feels like an outsider in this town. He might be from Earth, but this man seems even more alienated than I do. Also apparently a doctor who doesn't take no for an answer from potential patients.

Detective D.W. Loki ♪ The first person I met here in Deerington. It was a memorable meeting, for I don't believe I'd forget anyone who nearly ran be over with a car. A man who believes in law and order, almost to the degree of a zealot. I do believe he disapproves of many of my decisions, but he'll learn to mind his own business if he tries to enforce his authority.

XUE YANG ♪ ♪

A handsome man who has become one of my closest friends here. He's got an easy air about him that seems like it will turn deadly at any moment. There is just something dark within him that calls out towards the darkness that resides inside of myself. Sometimes I suspect he's completely insane, but considering I am too, it just means we are well-suited for each other's company. If I had lived on Earth, I suspect I would have had a life very much like he did. The relationship between him and Xiao Xingchen resembles that between the one between myself and Obi-Wan to an eerie degree. Looking at them sometimes is like looking into a distorted mirror.

We were always there for each other while he remained here and he encouraged me to go down a better path, cautioning against ending up like he did in his own world. Seeing the therapeutic effect being around his "daozhangs" gave me much to think about. I will miss him dearly and hope he goes back to a better fate than the life he was previously leading.

Jon Sims ♪ What is this creature? He is no man for all that he wears the unassuming appearance of one on the outside. No, he is a horror and abomination, and participating in his death was ultimately a good thing if something like this is walking around in our midst. Though I am loathe to admit it, he scares me for what he can do to my mind. If I am forced to kill him again, it will have to be through stealth and surprise, for I won't survive a second encounter with those eyes. Those eyes.....

Another Fool ♪

Ah, this man is going to end up dead by my hands sooner or later. I was first indifferent to him until he tried to steal from me and ending up causing the destruction of a Leitner when I tried to punish him. It me altered in body in a terrible fashion. Worse than that, it caused Ben to be hurt, so he ended up being the first person here I Force Choked. I would have killed him if not for the boy's intervention. I've no doubt he'll do something soon enough that shall result in me destroying him.

Alas, he vanished before I was able to enact full punishment upon, but I did get to witness him disappearing. It was a terrible sight to see. If that is what happens to cause us to wake from this living nightmare, I will just as soon remain asleep.

BEN HANSCOM ♪ ♪

A pudgy child that I have been taking time to train. He's taken to it with far more determination and kept it up longer than I would have expected. If he keeps this up, he might start actually acquiring some skills in the process. He is extremely kind and I am grateful to him for all that he did when I got turned into a child, though expressing it is something I don't know how to do.Also, why does he make such an attractive adult?

Ben has become the closest thing to an apprentice I have had since Eleven left. His kindness towards me is astounding. Even after all the terrible things I have done, he somehow still thinks that I can become a better person than I have been. He even managed to talk me down from killing that fool Lindsey when the Leitner destruction ended up hurting and scaring him, something very few in this place could have done. He sees good in me for whatever reason, and though it is hard to say, I almost hope I do not end up disappointing him.

.......I killed him. By the Force, I killed him and he did not revive. I have never felt guilt like this before and I'm not sure how to even handle it. I've never regretted a death more than I do his, and it hurts like I've never felt before. I finally understand just a little the anguish I've put others through when I've cut down their loved ones. If this is the first step on the path of redemption, I'm not sure I want to go any further! There's too much pain involved.

PETER PARKER "SPIDER-MAN" ♪ On Peter: Strange and awkward sort of child. Seems to enjoy wasting time far more than I approve of.
On Spider-Man: Is he actually a spider? Probably a child given the way he acts despite the name. Also, why are there multiples of this same being in this town? Was one not enough?

SAKURA KINOMOTO ♪

A sweet and innocent young girl who seems determined to help all that she can, even if it ends up running her ragged. If I were to hazard a guess, I'd say this is what Usagi was like at the same age. They have that same ineffable optimistic spirit to them. I have a feeling if I get closer to her, she will end up being a weakness for me the same way the others I care about here are.

Even when I killed her by snapping her neck, something that only happened because she was trying to help me instead of looking out for herself, she didn't hold it against me. Instead, she immediately gave me her forgiveness, something which I didn't feel I deserved but accepted anyway. I can only hope she went back to a better world than this one.

BILL ♪ Another "Derry child", a stuttering boy that seems to be held in high esteem by his friends. This one has gone through a loss I can relate to all too well in the death of his brother and facing down evil. Unlike his friends, he has such a sense of anger to him, something I feel can be cultivated and useful if only done by the right hands, by which I of course mean mine.

RITSUKA ♪

There is a saying of how one should never go into a battle of wits unarmed. I would never admit it to his smug little face, but I apparently have found myself completely outgunned by this sarcastic boy. While he hasn't done anything especially heinous, he's just far too irritating for me even communicating through the network. If we ever meet face-to-face, I'm going to tempted to feed him to my pets.

After meeting him, I discovered somehow he has the power to increase my abilities because of the bond between us. Of course, he continued to want to have nothing to do with me and was a thorn in my side, especially with his protective little pet following him everywhere. After meeting him for the first time where I could see him at the hotel and then witnessing a memory that made me very sympathetic towards him, our relationship began to change once again, but he disappeared before anything further could happen. The sensation of the bond between us snapping was sheer agony and felt like my hearts were being ripped out of my chest.

LUKE SKYWALKER ♪ A Jedi from after my time who is the son of Anakin. I believe he is the Chosen One that the prophecy speaks of and the one Obi-Wan slew me to continue to protect on Tatooine. There is a light in him that reminds me greatly of Usagi or Xiao Xingchen and it is hard not to trust him despite only knowing him a short time. Perhaps it is because he gave me the best news I could have received since coming here: he told me of my master's death.

Xiao Xingchen ♪

Another version of the man who arrived from somewhat earlier than when I first met him, I was delighted to find he accepted me once again wholeheartedly as a friend, though I never should have doubted someone with that much light within them would of course have enough kindness for one such as myself. I see much of myself and Obi-Wan in the relationship between Xue Yang and him, perhaps if we had met in a kinder world, or if I was ever able to give up my hatred. I will not think on the fact the two of them ended up loving each other, that is one parallel I most assuredly do not have with my old foe.

I trusted him enough to give him one of the fathiers that arrived here as a gift, for I could think of no one who would treat the animal better than he would. I will miss his kindness, the light within him, and his ability to see me as more than just some irredeemable monster as so many here do. Losing a friend such as he is no easy task.

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