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[survivalthroughhate]

"This is Maul. State your business."

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text; un: doublehedgedsword

[laminae]

[After the whole stabbing thing and the network post wherein it was very apparent that Maul didn't kill Flynn, Fern has been doing a lot of thinking. It doesn't seem like Maul has actually been lying to him, but his feelings of anger haven't gone away. Things are a confusing mess in his mind, and the only thing he's really sure about is that he needs to do something about it.]

ok so
i'm still mad at you for killing Varian
i don't think that's ever going to go away
he's the most important person ever to me, so i'm going to be mad at anyone who hurts him

but
i get that you're trying, even if you're not any good at it
you're not lying about that

Text; un: darkness

[survivalthroughhate]

[Well, well. He's been hoping for some kind of communication like this from Fern but he hadn't been counting on it happening anytime soon. Apparently, his name has been cleared to the grass boy's satisfaction.]

You're allowed to be mad and anyone who says otherwise doesn't understand that anger is a gift. It's all that has sustained me sometimes so I understand.

One doesn't get better at anything unless they keep practicing. True with weapons and true with life. So I'll keep trying even if I still don't understand all the social niceties that go along with doing better.

[His post in making Anakin confess had been evidence enough of that.]

Did Varian tell you I helped get him to sleep?

[laminae]

[Mostly cleared. He's in a good enough place to contact Maul, and that's a pretty big step.]

i bet a lot of people would argue with you about that
but that's kind of reassuring to hear
i don't really want to try and let go of it
at least not right now

good
that's good
i know it's not easy but you're doing good
and um, sorry for assuming you killed Flynn

[He shouldn't have jumped to conclusions.]

no
thanks for that
he's been having a really hard time with
uh, everything

[survivalthroughhate]

I think we can both assuredly say we are not like other people. I understand your point-of-view much better than most.

Next time, just ASK me if you think I've done something. I'm not one much for lying most of the time.

Yes, he had me quite worried considering it's been over a month of near-constant insomnia for him. I was determined to do something for him since for once it was within my power to do so.

[laminae]

you're not wrong about that
all of that

ok
i get that you wouldn't lie if i did, so i promise i will

yeah the insomnia has been really bad
REALLY bad
i'm really glad he could get some sleep, i've been worried
still am honestly

[survivalthroughhate]

Good. I don't plan to kill anyone anytime soon here. I am trying to garner a new reputation for myself, though I won't be too pressed if everyone continues to fear me for the foreseeable future.

He didn't look well when I last saw him. I thought it might only be because of his sleep deprivation but now I am not so sure. You see him every day. What do you think?

[laminae]

that's not gonna be easy, dude
it'd probably be easy just letting everyone keep on being scared of you and not killing people

at first i just thought it was because he hates having magic
um especially fire magic
he kiiiind of accidentally set me on fire once
but i don't think that's all of it
even if the magic stresses him out it feels like there's more going on

[survivalthroughhate]

If reputations were easy to obtain and discard, one wouldn’t spend a lifetime cultivating them. But I won’t kill here unless there is a very good reason to do so and so far I haven’t found that yet.

……..Of course he set you on fire. Of course.

[Really, Maul isn’t surprised any longer by anything Fern and Varian get up to. Setting one of them on fire is the least of what he’s seen the two of them do.]

I wonder if this place is doing something to him. Something we’re not going to be able to see until it’s too late.

[laminae]

[Finn never really spent any brainpower on cultivating a good reputation. He just... did stuff, and then people adored him, and Fern is realizing that's probably one of the reasons why he hates him. He doesn't have that anymore.]

i don't know i've seen loads of reasons to kill people around here
not acting on that is hard sometimes
uh, most of the time

it was definitely an accident ok
he's really not good with magic

dog i don't know but that's making me even more worried about him
what if you're right?

[survivalthroughhate]

Then have some self-control. I know many people here think I don’t possess any but the fact everyone continues to remain alive, breathing, and with all limbs attached proves that I do.

And yet I still remain unsurprised that this happened at all.

[You know things were topsy-turvy when Maul was the one advocating for self-control but here they are.

Maul pauses over those last words, typing and retyping until he’s got down what he wants to say.]

Then we will have to deal with it when the time comes. There is very little one can do to predict the future and we can only prepare so much for what will come. It sounds passive but focusing on what-ifs that may or may not appear is far worse.